a beautiful gift...

Well its been 4 months since Sorren came into this world and I am pretty sure there is a glitch in the time space continuem... i cant believe its been that long. The crazy part is that he has been like a dream... sweet, easy to care for... already sleeping through the night and just a happy little dude who apparently doesnt have a care in the world... he just wants to coo, smile, eat, sleep and play with his mom and dad... i feel like the luckiest guy on the planet to have such an amazing wife and little boy! The crazy part is that these 4 months have been really challenging for us, not just in all the attendent lessons first time parents have to learn and all the fears that need to be confronted but all kinds of little hurdles piled on top of that stuff. Trudy was sick soon after his birth and hospitalized twice in Sorren's first 2 months... i was hospitalized with a kidney stone, Sorren was diagnosed with a VSD that initially appeared to be serious enough that they were talking about heart surgery so the poor guy was taking trips to Stanford to be poked and prodded by the Docs and his crew... luckily he came through with flying colors and it appears he will be cleared all together after his next appointment with the cardiologist. We had some difficulty with crazy neighbors and were burglarized and ended up breaking a lease to escape the insanity... work was more stressful than i thought i could handle, a couple of guys who are like brothers to me fell into rough times and ended up in rehab... i could go on but i want to get back to the thing that keeps popping up to the surface for me... Sorren was the one thing we could channel our love, will, hope, faith and energy towards... knowing he needed our best no matter what the situation. He shined a light on all of the chaos and enabled us to walk through it. It is amazing how everything comes back to him for me--- its like everything/ everyone else become extras on a set but hes the one my thoughts, actions and heart points back to... what a beautiful gift to love something like that... i teared up the other day after thinking about how my parents must have felt after we lost Brian... and it was like a door opened i never knew existed... a new layer of understanding revealed. All i really want to do is be a good husband, father, son, friend, worker and citizen of the world... and give my boy every opportunity to make his dreams come true. I hope that my best is good enough and those of you who have touched my life will continue to support me along the way... so many folks have been there for us the past 4 months, allowing us to be there for Sorren and each other-- thank you to each and every one of you... Debra for being there time and time again, Mark for making us laugh, Mom and Dad for flying out and helping us through a rough patch,Ray for listening to me ramble and standing by my side, Aaron for giving me inspiration I could do this, Suzie for being a great neighbor, Lance n Shawn for reminding me what courage really is, Jeremy, Stacy, Dave and Linda for offering your friendship and support, Margie for checkin in and sharing, Caitie and Margie for being there for both of us, Rob for being like a rock that i can go to without judgment, Chops and Nora for being good examples and all the chats, Lisa for being there from the very beginning for us,Daniel for being back in my life again and the super cool musicmaker, JB for making our hospital stay extra special, Jerry, Leslie and the kids for your guidance, gifts , patience and understanding, Aunt Jan and Uncle John for the tastycakes ( send more ! ) Kalib for keepin it real, all the baseball guys for making me laugh and letting me escape it all for awhile, my coworkers for their support and kind gifts...Jen L for being an example and being a great mom, Ken for being patient, flexible and providing all my tech support (lol) i could go on and on for days.. if i missed ya i will make it up to ya i promise! Know that i appreciate each and every one of your contributions to my family... we couldnt do it without ya. And last but not least.. to my lovely wife Trudy- I am amazed each and every day by what an amazing mother you are to Sorren and how patient and tolerant you are of me along the way. I love you more than ever before and look forward to the ongoing adventure that is our family... me ,you, the kiddo and dogbaby doin the best we can one day at a time...